Thou shalt be sensible

The fact is, many people can walk in and out of your life but only those who matter to you will leave their footprint or mark on the piece of white paper you have in that "secret vault" right up there in the "sensible room". You know what I'm talking about...

I think many people whom I hang out with hasn't really seen the sensible side of me yet because most of the time they only get to see the playful, fun and loud side of me. The person whom I think understands me the most is my English teacher/ bestfriend/ 'mum in school'/ sister/ counselor, Madam Shirley Tan. That's why, the other day when I had nothing to do, I created a poem for her. Although it is not really Pulitzer and Nobel prize material but I think it's enough to describe a wonderful soul like her. This is the poem I wrote for her:

You,

A simple soul,

Who has a heart made of Gold

Who expects nothing more than for me to be happy,

Though sometimes you may be a little bit crappy,

You're loyal towards friendship,

Even in a sinking ship,

You'll be my float,

When everyone's fighting to be in the same lifeboat.

You,

Old at sight,

Young at heart,

Always ready to give,

Never expect to get,

That's what makes you so hard to forget,

It's true that soulmates are hard to find,

But I'm glad I've found mine..

Sweet!

Currently eating ice cream .

I had something in my mind that I wanted to share with you guys but I think the ice cream temporarily froze my mind and blocked my string of thoughts.

Anyway, why am I eating so much these days? Especially sweet things? If it weren't for those evening workouts at the gym and also futsal, I think none of you would be able to recognize me when school reopens.

They say people tend to eat sweet things when they're worried or anxious and I think that I am one of those people! It's probably cause my JPS trials is next week and also my SPM is in 70 days!!!

My heart keeps telling me, "GO STUDY LA KEN JEE" but my mind is like immune to the fear and the anxiety that exams has caused.

I GOTTA START CLEANING UP MY ACT ALREADY BEFORE IT'S TOO LATE!!!

Emo?

What makes you emo?

Who made you emo?

What is emo?

Where did the word emo originate from?

I have had my share of being emo last year and also beginning of this year. Being emo sucks to the max. I don't know why there is even a feeling called emo. It just sucks the life out of you. You wouldn't be as happy of a person like you were before. Your friends will also notice a certain change in you. (If they don't, well... then they are not considered to be your friends) You try to smile or laugh at certain LAME jokes but you just do not have the mood to even move your facial muscle. Reminiscing about the past and also the good times you had with that person or thing. Many 'What if' questions will be asked mentally.

"What if I had done this?, What if I had said this? What if I had not said that? "

I don't blame emo people. Don't be too harsh on emo people. Don't think that they're just being emo for the sick of being emo and to be able to attract attention ( though some people I know are like this) . Give them a break. They're just experiencing a fall in life. It's either you help them get up or let them get up on their own.

Actually I don't even know why am I writing all of these. But one thing's for sure, when you're emo, don't be emo for too long because you don't know what you've been missing throughout the period where you have been emo.

Sometimes I question myself whether by me being reckless in life and also having all the extensive laughter in school is just a cover up to hide my emotions. Oh well, enough blabbing for now. .___.

Con Te Partiro

Hello there fellow readers of djjayden-beatboxer.blogspot.com. LOL!

Today i attended a moral seminar with my best friend Sue May. I know many of you are thinking, "What's so special about going to a stupid seminar with your best friend? "

Well let me tell you what happened. It all started with the misconception of where to meet each other before we were off to the seminar at Siew Wei's house. Sue May told me the other day to meet her at Mcdonalds. So I assumed that she was talking about the Mcd at Tai Pan because there's where most of my friends and I meet before going anywhere. Furthermore, she and I both live so far from each other and I thought that the midpoint of our houses is in Subang.

The second misconception was who was going to send me all the way to the moral seminar at Kota Kemuning? Sue May wanted to ask her parents to fetch me but she didn't know how to tell her father that I was going because he already warned her to not go to that seminar if I am going.

See the thing is, both of our parents think that Sue May and I are a couple. This statement is completely FALSE!!! She's my best friend for heaven's sake. I already explained to my parents about this and they believed me. Sue May's parents on the other hand believed her at first but after a string of events, her parents took it the wrong way .___." The reason her parents doubted her was because, I called her a few times around 10 o'clock and we talked for about an hour. Secondly, one time her father caught her crying while talking to me and it made things worse. When a father sees his daughter crying on the phone while talking to a guy, what would he think? He will definitely think that I'm either going to break up with her or we're just having those premature couple arguments. LOL. Thirdly, Sue May made a scrap book for me on my birthday and guess who saw it again? Yes... her father.

So, when sue may told me that it was the Mcd at Kota Kemuning, I was like, "WHAT!?!?!" because I already told my mum to send me to the tai pan mcd and I didn't want to trouble her by sending me so far though she offered. I kept on thinking of a way for me to get to kota kemuning's mcd without getting caught by my mum. So I called my bestfriend/ godmother in school/ sister/ counselor/ teacher... Pn Shirley Tan to send me. She agreed.

So today everything went according to plan. My mum was under the pretense that Sue May's mum was picking me up from Tai pan while Sue May's parents believes that I am not attending that seminar. HAHA!

Do you guys see how hard is it for us to attend a Moral Seminar? It's not like we're going for a date in some secluded area? The best part is... we're only best friends! haha!

Oh, and when I was in the room today, I listened to a few opera songs like the title of this post which means 'With you I will leave'. I tried singing to it and it sounded almost like how Andrea Bocelli sang it! hehe. Just kidding... But it sounded quite good also la. :P

Dilemma!

Omg! It's official! I have gained back all the weight that I have lost for the past two years! What the hell! All my hardwork has gone down the drain. However I still don't look fat . Yeepee! My theory is that part of my weight is due to the increase in muscle mass and also my increase in height. But I am still not happy that the weighing machine is laughing at me. Stupid weighing machine! -.-" I think it's not working properly. I shall buy a new weighing machine soon. Even my mum says that my face is not that sharp already. Below is my previous post on how I lost weight weight in form 3. Click to read! :)

Transformation

And then there were none

I'm balding!!!

Hey there my fellow readers! Isn't it good to hear from me again about a month later and hear that I'm balding? Not bad right?

Sigh...

Oh well, nothing much happened throughout the month of august cause it was just exams, exams and exams. I'm getting quite tired of exams already but... I still have a few more hurdles before the final hurdle on the 22nd ofDecember. I guess it's because of exam stress and also the lack of sleep which is causing my crowning glory to not be so glorious anymore?

For now, there's not much of drama happening in school as all of us are pretty much putting our nerd mode on and shifting our gear into gear 3 or 4. I'm pretty much still struggling to get my gear into gear 2. I just hope it will be at gear 6 just before spm *crosses finger*

Oh and have I told you guys? I have gained 3 kg over the past month! Yeepee! -.-" I blame it on the stress! Day and night I am just stuffing my face with food. Not just any food, but food which are fattening such as chocolates and chips. I guess I can say that whenever exam is near I will always open my fridge and take whatever is inside and stuff myself with it. Don't you?

All outings and gatherings have been postponed till after SPM! Everything is also after SPM! Something I'll be looking forward to is Prom! I'll be going to THREE! Hehe. 2 of which I will be performing in which is the Sri KL prom and the Subang Utama prom. Another one is of course my own school's prom which I will not be performing in. HAHA!

It's the Raya Holidays now and school is only gonna reopen in 2 weeks time. The Monday itself when school reopens will be my JPS trials . So I'm going to be spending my holidays rotting at home and also loosing weight. Oh ya, for those who are celebrating raya...

Anyway, enough said for now. Till next time dudes and dudettes!

psychology test

Your Existing Situation

"Is not making any progress, but unwilling to put any further effort into the situation. Seeking more comfortable conditions where very little is required of him."

Your Stress Sources

"His stubbornness and will-power has become weakened due to current difficulties. Feels overworked and emotionally drain; as if all his work is for nothing and he is getting nowhere. The situation is very real to him and he wants to escape, but has no idea how to do so or how to even approach the situation rationally."

Your Restrained Characteristics

"Self-centered, tends to take this personally and is easily offended."

Feels trapped in a helpless situation and is desperately seeking relief. He is able to find pleasure and happiness in sexual activity.

"Seeking to broaden his horizons and believes his hopes and dreams are realistic. Worries he may not be able to do the things he wants and needs to escape to a peaceful, quiet environment in order to restore his confidence."

"Willing to become emotionally involved because he feels isolated and alone. He tries to avoid conflict and disagreements, but his arrogance leads him to quickly take offense."

Your Desired Objective

Is in need of immediate rest and relaxation. Longs for peace and a sense they are understood. Feels he has been treated unfairly which makes him angry. Cannot stand to stay in an environment in which he is treated unfairly and with no consideration for his feelings.

Your Actual Problem

"Tension and stress is brought on by trying to cope with conditions which are out of his control, using up all his strength and leaving him feeling inadequate. He wishes to escape into a more peaceful and problem-free environment, in which he will no longer have to assert himself or deal with so much pressure."