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Today was quite a waste of time. We didn't do anything much in school except for getting our robes which is to be worn during our graduation this Saturday. Come to think of it, this small little graduation thingy is sort of a joke don't you think? It's just a mock up of the real deal which we will experience after we get our degree and finish college. Hmmm...

I don't like today. My best friend broke one of the terms of our agreement. Sometimes I don't know what my best friend is thinking. Maybe I think too much? :/

I think I'm gonna start studying chemistry later. Like REALLY start. :O

Sigh... This year really sucks to the core man.

Sheesh

This is the second time i'm typing this. So bloody frustrating!!! Anyway, finally I get to update my blog using my phone. Before this I tried updating it using my phone's internet browser and each time i wanted to compose a post, the whole page just goes blank and shuts down. Wth right? So today i tried updating with my phone's opera mini which I downloaded a month ago and fortunately, I can update!!! Now i can update it whenever i want however i want it, wherever i want and with whoever i want.Haha! Ne ne ni bubu! -_-" okay that was lame. But wtv.

Sorry for not updating my blog so long my dear loyal and faithful readers. I was kinda lazy to update it and I didn't have many topics to talk about. But now since I can use my phone to blog, you will hear from me very often. Haha. Oh oh, have you heard? Spm is in 29 days! Yee pee! -_-" I always tell myself "okay today i'm gonna start studying kao kao" but everyday also procrastinate. Sigh... How? I think Spm is SOOOO overrated. Don't you? Pls feel free to leave a comment bitches! Hehe. :P

It's not cool

Something to rant here!

I hate people who mock me!!! F***king hate it!

If any of you has the intention to mock every single thing I say before I start saying it then PLS SHUT THE HELL UP if you have nothing to say. If I already got mood to talk to any of you then pls don't spoil my mood by saying something just to annoy me or make fun of me. So frustrated!!! I'm just trying to start a conversation with you guys. I think it's because most of the time I just laugh about it and just tahan that's why many of you think that I'm okay with you mocking me. Well, it's not cool.

Anyway, tomorrow is the end of the Raya Holidays and 3 days after that is my JPS trials!!! I don't think I will update my blog as much I did during the holidays but I'll make it a point to update it every week . :)

It was all a blur

What if a guy/girl says this to you? "

" Sometimes I like you but sometimes I don't"

What would you say?

HAHA! This is an inside joke between my classmates and I.

We went for our morning jog again this morning at 7.45. Today seemed a little bit boring and I didn't really have the motivation to jog more than 5 rounds around the MPSJ field. Instead I just jogged 3 rounds. The 6 of us, Mei Yen, Samantha, Yi Shuen, Patrick , Ameline and I then left for our yumcha session at Kedai Kopi Nanking where Sam, Mei Yen and I discussed about creating our very own food blog after our SPM is over.

After we ate, we sat down at Mcdonalds for some gossiping session while waiting for either Tai Pan garden's pool and snooker club or Station 1 to open so that we can play pool. Ameline didn't join us as she was called back by her father to send his car for repair. Today was not as fun as Tuesday though. Don't know why. Maybe cause it's 2 days nearer towards SPM!

I try to trick my mind into thinking there's still 60 more days instead of 67 because if I was still studying a week beforre my SPM... I think I will be suffering from insomnia due to all the guilt of last minute studying.

What am I still doing here?!?! Study lor...

Thou shalt be sensible

The fact is, many people can walk in and out of your life but only those who matter to you will leave their footprint or mark on the piece of white paper you have in that "secret vault" right up there in the "sensible room". You know what I'm talking about...

I think many people whom I hang out with hasn't really seen the sensible side of me yet because most of the time they only get to see the playful, fun and loud side of me. The person whom I think understands me the most is my English teacher/ bestfriend/ 'mum in school'/ sister/ counselor, Madam Shirley Tan. That's why, the other day when I had nothing to do, I created a poem for her. Although it is not really Pulitzer and Nobel prize material but I think it's enough to describe a wonderful soul like her. This is the poem I wrote for her:

You,

A simple soul,

Who has a heart made of Gold

Who expects nothing more than for me to be happy,

Though sometimes you may be a little bit crappy,

You're loyal towards friendship,

Even in a sinking ship,

You'll be my float,

When everyone's fighting to be in the same lifeboat.

You,

Old at sight,

Young at heart,

Always ready to give,

Never expect to get,

That's what makes you so hard to forget,

It's true that soulmates are hard to find,

But I'm glad I've found mine..

Sweet!

Currently eating ice cream .

I had something in my mind that I wanted to share with you guys but I think the ice cream temporarily froze my mind and blocked my string of thoughts.

Anyway, why am I eating so much these days? Especially sweet things? If it weren't for those evening workouts at the gym and also futsal, I think none of you would be able to recognize me when school reopens.

They say people tend to eat sweet things when they're worried or anxious and I think that I am one of those people! It's probably cause my JPS trials is next week and also my SPM is in 70 days!!!

My heart keeps telling me, "GO STUDY LA KEN JEE" but my mind is like immune to the fear and the anxiety that exams has caused.

I GOTTA START CLEANING UP MY ACT ALREADY BEFORE IT'S TOO LATE!!!

Emo?

What makes you emo?

Who made you emo?

What is emo?

Where did the word emo originate from?

I have had my share of being emo last year and also beginning of this year. Being emo sucks to the max. I don't know why there is even a feeling called emo. It just sucks the life out of you. You wouldn't be as happy of a person like you were before. Your friends will also notice a certain change in you. (If they don't, well... then they are not considered to be your friends) You try to smile or laugh at certain LAME jokes but you just do not have the mood to even move your facial muscle. Reminiscing about the past and also the good times you had with that person or thing. Many 'What if' questions will be asked mentally.

"What if I had done this?, What if I had said this? What if I had not said that? "

I don't blame emo people. Don't be too harsh on emo people. Don't think that they're just being emo for the sick of being emo and to be able to attract attention ( though some people I know are like this) . Give them a break. They're just experiencing a fall in life. It's either you help them get up or let them get up on their own.

Actually I don't even know why am I writing all of these. But one thing's for sure, when you're emo, don't be emo for too long because you don't know what you've been missing throughout the period where you have been emo.

Sometimes I question myself whether by me being reckless in life and also having all the extensive laughter in school is just a cover up to hide my emotions. Oh well, enough blabbing for now. .___.